I absolutely love doing Magicks myself. It helps me and the one I do it for. The same as with all other things we choose for ourselves what we will or will not do.
I stepped out of the world once upon a time. I withdrew because I realized that I was not coping well. The more I tried to get help from anyone the more they just expected me to just shut up and go away.
I stepped out of the world once upon a time. My health took a turn and I did not have the skills I needed to handle it and the rat race of life. I caused me great heart ache that I was suffering and very few people really cared.
All this means is an ending of one phase has completed and the beginning of a new one has began. Just move forward. Only you really know when you should move on.
He is the skilled Knight that is sure enough to take the reigns and smart enough to keep a master within reach. Though he clearly senses his higher self, he has a lot further to go to complete his transformation once and for all.