I stepped out of the world once upon a time. I withdrew because I realized that I was not coping well. The more I tried to get help from anyone the more they just expected me to just shut up and go away.
In the grip of deep pain, we can’t see into situations as clearly as we normally do no matter how strong we think we are. When we are in pain, no matter the cause, we go into survival mode. We have to consciously focus on things that generally come easy to us.
You are a Star. Honing our senses is a big key in learning how you heal your soul pain. Accepting and in enacting Real change gets you there much faster.
I like this article. https://www.elephantjournal.com/2018/04/april-10th-11th-powerful-solar-storms-causing-intense-energy-shifts/
This is the journey that leads to deep soul healing and any venture with that kind of promise is worth taking even if you just keep beginning it again and again. There will be breakthroughs. Celebrate the tiny as well as the great moments of clarity. You are worth the effort.
If you find that you are constantly being put in situations in which you need to defend yourself, consider why you always feel you need to react to everything going on around you.